I did it again....

Welp, single again due to well, a variety of reasons.  I just keep fucking up apparently...why can't I do anything right..Its almost 2 in the morning....I can't sleep, feel like shit, keep alternating between anger and sadness.  The worst part is that I know i probably could have done something about it...but nope, I decided to just let my life get fucked up again....I am starting to really wonder if it is worth trying to maintain a relationship with someone or if I should just stay single.  Doesn't seem to be working out too well so far.  Two of the exes won't even talk to me anymore, and I the latest one can't seem to look me in the eye...Damnit....I think that maybe I just need to take a deep breath and relax.  I'm alive, I have good friends, and I can always try dating again.  Being melodramatic won't solve anything.  Sometimes the solution is just as simple as writing down what I'm feeling and then gaining perspective on it.  Holding it in doesn't do anything, I have to vent.  Now the only thing left is to just get some sleep and get through tommorrow. Then I'm on the way to North Carolina to see the family and get some R&R.